It hit me today like a wall

I'm ready for them to go back to school.

I love my children and there is noone that I would rather spend time with than my family.

But

I am doing my yearly turn as host of book club and trying to cook for 17 and get my home back under control with all five children under foot.

And it feels futile.

I had just cleaned the kitchen to a sparkle when one of them asked if they could make lunch.

Ugh.

Now I am starting all over again.

I  think this is one of the reasons that I don't really enjoy cooking.

It is the exact opposite of a clean kitchen.  And I feel as though  I am

ALWAYS cleaning my kitchen or doing dishes or cleaning the dishwasher out or scrubbing a sticky floor.

I know many of you can relate.

I really miss my 7 hours a day of productivity.

I am ready.

12 more days.